personal rainy/stormy season

its the pig plus the cow put together blogging here again.

the lunch hour is still on and i'm facing my laptop after a quick takeaway from KFC. im feeling so vexed, not quite stressed but tired over the fact that i'm working quite/ rather hard? hahaa just a 5 day work week.. still i should put my best effort into anything i do. because i live by faith that i work for my God.

i've just got so much running through my mind and i wanted a space to type it all out. this is what a blog is for isnt it? hehe. so pls excuse this entry if you dont want to continue reading from here. pls pardon this entry even if this is not the usual language you read about.

I feel tired trying to communicate with my cXXXXaGXe! someone totally different from me. i mean, we face each other more than we see our family members a week and yet i feel so dragged down by this whole thing. someone who's always so negative, isnt very responsible (not by my standards but i'd agree..) someone who 'clicks' well with the opposite gender. is an extremnist. i feel many a time my faith pushed to the edge where i have to make a clear stand. i can't agree to everything that this person says, its just difficult enough for me to state my own reasoning sometimes as this person is an extremnist like i said! its even more tough being the catalyst in this oXXice. between the other two people. i appear to be someone more calm, steady for sure yet it isnt easy to be the in between person when i witness a quarrel or just a 'let steam off' session! i think im bottling up all these over the past few weeks that i end up releasing my anger at home. how unfair to them, but i try to control. no it doesnt work well!

so pls forgive me if i am unreasonable. i need an outlet for release. if not i cant walk.

i know who's carrying me through this storm and i thank Him. i could never praise Him enough. His grace is sufficient for me!

i WILL be alright.

im gona whack some balls tomorrow. i need a workout. sweat it off!